I think I did a lot of things terribly wrong during the first couple of years. In fact, I didn't become a conscious parent until a while after I met Jon. Some things about this man and this boy tell me that God is with me and every decision I make no matter what. Jon was the first person in my life to love me FULLY and show me that I rock (which I still don't fully believe, but regardless...that's what he's showing me.) That, in turn, has inspired me to have the belief in myself to be the parent I know my kids deserve.
So when I get questions or hints at the thought that maybe I'm a lazy parent I get equally mad, sad, offended, unsure of myself, confident, and excited to keep on doing what I'm doing, which is constantly self-analyze and evolve right along with the kids.
Having two lazy parents myself, I know good and well that the LAST thing a lazy parent wants to do is spend time with their children. To think unschoolers could possibly be lazy is crazy talk. This is a fuller-than-full-time job. And, I know. I've worked full time while raising Zane and I've stayed at home both while Zane was a baby for a short time and now that I have both kids. Being home with kids all day, every day is more demanding than anything I've experienced before. Rest assured. :-)
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What's not easy is keeping our brains active and going without forcing the issue. It's not always easy to inspire a child. Much easier to "make" a child (do this or that). Not easy to find all the answers the child wants. Much easier to let the teachers do it for them. Not easy to decide what you're doing out of habit and programming and what you're doing intentionally from a conscious decision. Much easier to do what the magazines, books, masses tell you to do. Not easy to teach lessons from all things that happen. Much easier to yell when children don't do the right thing and then spoil them out of guilt. Not easy to face the scrutiny of people who think you're lazy. Much easier to go with the flow and hide in it.
I think when people think of us as lazy it's because we allow our kids to learn what is appropriate for their brains and hearts to handle at any given time. I've just recently heard about this and haven't read too much into it yet, but am super drawn to the idea that we learn different things and different ways at different stages in life. I've thought that myself and am so turned off by the ideas of teaching babies to read, toddlers their ABCs, or preschoolers math. That may LOOK like we're sitting back and not doing anything when in all actuality there's a LOT of observing, thinking, planning, and dialogue going on.
Ultimately, I think the whole thing comes down to being symbolic of a language barrier. There are parents who hover and are on top of everything their kids do and there are parents who observe and are into everything their kids do. These two types tend to butt heads a lot because both have their filters through which they see the others and since both parties ARE conscious parents and both parties are trying to do things RIGHT but both parties are doing things in opposite ways; they tend to believe they can't get along or even accept what the other is doing. When in all actuality these two forces are just part of the symbiosis of basic physics. For every action there is an equal and opposite reaction. We are all doing the same, opposite thing.
That being said, I'll make you a deal... I'll recognize and embrace the fact that you have a story and a reason behind what you consciously choose to do without looking at your choices with disapproval and you reciprocate that for me. Game on?? ;-)